You no longer mean a thing to me,

But why is it that you still haunt me

I blame it on all the abuse

All the mental and emotional abuse

Playing mind games, that’s what you do/did

Making me feel like I was always to blame,

But really it was all framed

Always being the bad person in every way

I hate how you come to my mind

But thankfully it’s rare

It’s mostly when I’m scared,

Only because I am traumatized

Traumatized from confusing love with a simple game

I still hate myself for forgiving you every time

It really was a mistake

Took me too many years,

And oh man did my heart ache throughout time

And here I am repeating every relationship the same

Getting played from start to end

But I am the only one to blame

I try to learn from my mistakes

I hate history repeating itself

But most of all I hate trying so hard to just get a simple just friends text

And I know I’m not okay when I start thinking about a meaningless ex

Thinking of the fact how my life is such a mess

But I will never let it define me that way

For I am the best