I still feel just as confused as you

I want to end everything just like you

I would hate for you to walk away just like before

I still need you in my life

And I hate what we have done

We ruined our relationship not as one but as friends

And I hate it because it’s so damaged

And mostly it’s affecting me more than you

You don’t even care anymore

And I’m always just sitting here fearing death,

Since it’s all I ever dream

I wish you would just talk to me

But what’s the point

I’ll forever be a mess, with or without you

I’ll never regret anything

I’m laughing for you won’t be the only one thinking this is about them

It sounds so bad,

But I really don’t care

I tried to find love in many places

Tried to replace you

Tried to better myself

Which I did.

Took me a while, but I’m better

And I’m leaving you now

Letting go of the feelings that keep me connected to you

You’ll always be my friend

Won’t really be the same

But  I want to let you know,

I’ll always love you too