Honestly you’re the only person I ever think about

And it doesn’t hurt when I think about you anymore

The last time I said goodbye it was too painful that suddenly I didn’t feel anything at all

And I was a fool for thinking you wouldn’t walk away like everyone else does

But here we are

I was so desperate to tell you I loved you

Maybe I did lie,

To not feel as stupid as I already was

For the fact of me just showing up

And I still want to apologize for that

But what for?

It’ll just make me cry and won’t make a difference at all

You’ll just sit back and relax

That seems like what you’ve been doing all along

I’m tired of always being the one to always try

Always putting stupid illusions on my mind

Even when my friends know better than me and try to stop me from my own destruction destiny

Why don’t I listen?

Why do I do things?

Such stupid reckless things

And is it stupid to still tell you I love you?

Yes!

God why?

Why would I want to put myself there?

Did it not hurt enough all the other times before

I just wanna stare into your eyes and tell you without a regret

And I’ll be expecting a simple rejection from you

It won’t hurt

I think I already know better

For you are your own person

And you deserve better