I’m slowly going back to my bad place

And I’m afraid there’s no escape

Every step I take,

Takes me further and further and out of breath

I want to scream out for help

But my anxiety and depression won’t let me

I’m at the point where I want to be better

Forever a lost soul trying to find its home

I don’t know what is right or wrong anymore

My thoughts just tell me to just have a final end

I want to tell someone about my dark thoughts,

But the last thing I want to do is have someone worry about me,

When I’m slowly forgetting how to breathe

I don’t want no sympathy

I just want someone to understand me

I want someone beside me, telling me it will be okay

To just hold me as I cry in bed

To make me forget about the end

I need my family and friends

I’ll act as if nothing is happening, just for their sake

It sucks that I’ve been blinding my family from my reality since a young age

I’ve been going through this by myself,

But then again, I’ve always had great friends

But even to them I am fake for their sake

I’m scared that I’m falling too much to the edge

I don’t want to somehow take a step towards my own death

Every day every step that I take I just want to get away

But who knows what destiny will have for me today.