It’s probably the alcohol talking

It’s always been like that with us

Part of me is happy that deep inside,

We feel the same

Wanting that sweet loving connection

I now know that you’re my kryptonite

You’ve always been especially at night

The way you play with my hair,

Your gentle touch keeps me calm

The way you hold me tightly in your arms

But how long before it ends again

Before one of us starts playing pretend

I wowed you with my intentions of wanting to be an author

And yes I am a coward for not wanting to define my poems

It’s only because I’d mention you in every single one

When you hold me I swear I’m on another planet

You’ve always made me feel safe

You might actually be my escape

I realized that it’s always been so hard for me to talk to you

And maybe it’s because I’ve always cared about what you think of me

Do I make you happy? Are you disappointed in me?

Will you ever love me endlessly?

Many questions unanswered and it’s all thanks to fear

I’ll always love you no matter what and I’ll always be here

You are the one who has always had my heart

How could I ever really give it to anyone other than you?

You’re the only one that ever tried to actually mend it and care for it

I wish I could go back in time and never had ended it.

Till this day it’s the only thing I have and will always regret

All you ever did was be supportive and caring

And this is a stupid excuse but I was too much of a mess to notice then

How could I be so selfish?

I really wish we could work it out

But neither of us knows the outcome

I’m tired of chasing. I’ll always want you to be the one

But I can’t keep hurting myself trying to fix our past

It’s impossible to do that,

But I don’t want to give up.

It always leads back to us.

Trust, you’re not the only one with doubt

I want to trust my gut,

But what if we can never work out

That’s my biggest fear

That’s why I’ve been stopping myself to get near

For us, history repeats itself every year

Will you at least give it another try somewhere along time?

Can you at least respond to that?

I just need a simple yes or no back.

Either or, I’ll be here with open doors,

To help lead you home,

Which ever way you want to go.