My mind seems to be a ticking bomb

Every thought is an explosion of emotions

Why do I feel like this?

Sometimes I feel like collapsing on the floor

Is death knocking at my door?

What am I living for?

My head hurts

My heart aches

What is it all for?

I want to ask you for reassurance that everything will be okay

Because you make everything bad go away

Will you help me get away from all the unknowingness

I want to be able to breathe on my own, just like before

But every dark thought pulls me back to my past

Everything forever haunts me

I no longer know who to blame, other than me in the end

Do I even have an escape?

Part of me doesn’t want you near, for I’m afraid I give off negativity in the atmosphere

I don’t think you’ll ever understand how much you soothe me

Even with all my thoughts you’re the one who keeps me calm

You make me believe in myself on some other level

I owe you everything for that and that’s why you’ll always have my heart